INBOX for purgastory

[aerodynamic]

HELLO

"Yo. Is this thing on?"

GOODBYE

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[tindery]

... no one's ever going to have the right answers to grief and mourning.

[ and tobari is aware it's made all the more confusing by the fact that right now, physically, in all the ways that matters—he's here and he's fine. it's just knowing that one day, suddenly, he won't be. ]

Maybe it's something you never get past. But... not everything needs to feel good or like it'll heal. Sometimes, all you can hope for is the ache to get a little smaller compared to everything else you feel that day.

[aerodynamic]

I know. It still hurts to think about Saki-senpai sometimes.

[ and this is worse because he's obviously closer to tobari than he ever really got to be to saki just based on how they've talked to each other. ]

... solid advice, but I don't know if I'm happy thinking about why you might look at it that way. I mean you know... never mind, you get what I'm saying.

[ considering everything tobari's lost. ]

It just feels weird when you're right here.

[tindery]

[ the corner of tobari's mouth quirks up in a rueful smile despite everything. yeah. he's really no stranger to grief either. however, he had to keep putting one foot in front of the other despite everything literally burning down around him.

yosuke doesn't have to do quite the same thing or suffer the same scars. ]

... most people don't know when the end is coming. This might feel like a small comfort, but at least it won't come as a surprise anymore.

[ tobari was never going to mention this but maybe it'll be easier now? ]

So we can just say that maybe a longer goodbye than we thought is coming.

[aerodynamic]

[ the look he gives tobari says he's not sure if he agrees or disagrees about it being a comfort, but he does get what he's saying. ]

Small blessings, or something like that.
I do like knowing instead of being surprised at the end, I'll give you that.
I can still hate goodbyes though.