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[ there's a noise that is meant to indicate "i know" or "i said in a minute" but he's too busy pushing his face into ryuji's ribs apparently. he doesn't get to stay there though because suddenly he's rotating, a short kind of squeak as they're flipped and he settling here. how the fuck he ended up as the little spoon is a mystery (it's not.) but he tenses for a short bit before he slowly relaxes. he may be bi, but he's still getting used to this.

granted, he hangs off of tsukasa all the time but maybe that's different. nevertheless he has to admit to himself he actually likes this. sometimes you belatedly realize you're an affectionate person and would be content having somebody to cuddle. okay, fine, it's another guy. who cares!! he doesn't pull very far away, but he grabs the notebook to scribble another message despite the fact his eyes are half-open. ]

Sorry for freaking you out, but I had to do something. I knew if he kept going he'd hurt somebody else and it'd be worse for him when he came back to himself.
But also that seriously sucked, what the hell.
Plus the river ALSO seriously sucks...

[Yosuke absolutely will not be conscious to eat this ramen in about ten minutes. And if he doesn't also pass the hell out, he will just sit up and eat both of them before lying down again and then passing out.

He reaches up to hold the edge of the notebook so he can read it as if that somehow helps, then drapes his arm back over Yosuke's side.]

I get it. Stop apologizin'.

[As if he wouldn't have done the same thing if not distracted by Yosuke's very similar flinging into danger.]

Didn't want you to have to do the river again, but you weren't the only one. Like a hundred people had to get in there 'cause of Shadowman and wherever everybody went.

[ it's either this or he falls asleep face first in the ramen. he might get up in a few minutes but this really isn't a compelling argument. it's even worse off when when ryuji drapes an arm back over him and yosuke moves, grabbing said-arm to lock around him more securely. if you're going to do this, do it right. ]

Yeah, no kidding. This last round was really bad.
Won's back at least, and so's Hien. Not entirely sure what Hien's missing, but be nice to Hak, okay?
Losing my voice isn't the worst thing to happen at least. It's just annoying.

[ "and it makes it much harder to talk to you." ]

Edited 2025-12-21 21:59 (UTC)

[Damn! Okay! He tucks his arm up against Yosuke's chest, feeling hot in the face. He didn't know you wanted to cuddle cuddle, sue him. Also, worse? Worse is Ryuji notching his face a little into the back of Yosuke's neck and shoulder at the hairline, making sure he can still see over to the notebook and what Yosuke is writing.

Not that it necessarily matters since Yosuke's thoughts reverberate to him, too.]

I know.

[This could be in response to either of those. He doesn't clarify. (Both!)]

Probably somethin' just as annoying as yours. I'm gonna go see how Hak is doin' later. I'm gonna be nice. I'm never not nice to that guy, even if he bit me and then tried kissin' me for no reason. Guess I should probably check on Shadowman, too. Ain't talked to him in a little while.

[ this is like 50% he's cold and tired and 50% he's pushing ryuji's buttons to see what he does and possibly make him insane. somewhere in there he also is in the middle of trying to come to terms with the idea maybe he would like to be held sometimes, damn. that's weird? that's not a manly response and he has to sort of process that. there are two wolves inside him, the one that objects to being labeled an omega and wants to be a guys guy and the other that could probably use a hug in general half the time.

except he is a little surprised when ryuji's face is in the back of his neck, skin growing warm while he thinks about how close they are despite the fact he literally caused this. it's fine. ]

It's probably not as bad as it was when he went in after eating the keys to the cage. That one was awful for him.
Didn't say you're never not nice, but you get it.

[ "should i bite you to make up for that, too?" slightly delirious thoughts. ]

Whenever you wanna go check on everybody it's fine. Probably not going anywhere for a while.

[YOSUKE. Christ. He's having enough of a hormonal boy crisis as it is, and now he has to figure out how he feels about YOU after you made him practice kissing on you!! It's fine. That is a problem for later Ryuji once they've rested.

There is a sigh of hot breath on the back of Yosuke's neck. Enjoy.]

I'll go when there's time.

[His face is warm against Yosuke's neck. His thoughts mumble a kind of, Great, now I'm gonna be thinkin' about him bitin' me, too. Thanks a lot! Speaking of, and speaking of a later Ryuji problem...]

Sorry I ain't... Forget it. Uh, I guess we should talk after you nap and eat. [Wait.] ...Well, ya can't really talk, but... just... Dammit, nevermind. You know what I mean.

[ sorry, this isn't his fault? (it's completely his fault.) things that are not his fault though: the shudder that runs through him when ryuji breathes on the back of his neck, and he curls around his arm a little tighter. he peels an eye open to look at the food on the table, and while he does kind of want it he's also comfortable like this.

he hears the thought bouncing around in his head though and it means he's also now thinking about actually biting him? this is a mess. that's for later, because he does think about what tobari said before he writes on the page again. ]

Been a week.

[ just. pointing out that they haven't talked in a while. ]

We should talk whenever you wanna talk. Can be now, can be after, I don't care. Sorry it has to be like this though, haha. What a pain.

[Dammit, he brain chastises him. This is the worst effin' time to bring this up, idiot. And it is! It was the worst time. Yosuke is exhausted, stunted by the river, and needs food and rest.]

Sorry, [he manages, feeling awkward. He's remembering what Edamura told him which, hilariously, was almost the exact same things Tobari told Yosuke.] I'm bein' selfish. I can't make you talk about all of that right now, dude. It ain't right.

[Another huff of warm air on Yosuke's neck, sorry buddy.]

Rest 'n eat first. I... uh... I ain't goin' nowhere. [Where's he gonna go with Yosuke wrapping up in his arm?] I'll be here when you wake up.

I ain't mad or nothin', for the record.

[In case even bringing all this up made Yosuke too nervous to pass out.]

[ his fingers tap on the back of ryuji's hand twice as if he's telling him to shut up with the apology. like yes, fine, they should maybe talk about this when yosuke can actually talk. on the other hand, this isn't helping given there's a quiet whine when another puff of air ghosts over him. damnit, stop thinking, yosuke.

his brain definitely feels a little sluggish like he's struggling to process what ryuji's saying, eyelids fluttering while he's writing on his page again. ]

I'm not either.

[ he didn't think either of them would be mad, but it's a lot to reframe. anyway their ramen is definitely going to get cold unless ryuji decides to eat it soon because yosuke's still writing something else. ]

I don't think it's selfish

[ well. ryuji gets to wonder what the rest of that thought is because yosuke does, actually, pass out in the middle of that sentence, growing slack against him even with the slight shivering because he really should've put on a hoodie. how long is ryuji actually going to stay there? abuses this icon because it's cute. ]

[THIS ICON IS CUTE

Why did either of them think the other was mad anyway? They're so stupid. Or Ryuji is just stupid, at least.

He watches Yosuke struggle to write the last little bit of whatever Yosuke had planned to say in the notebook. His laugh is the last quietest little huff on the back of Yosuke's neck which thankfully Yosuke won't have to endure painfully like the others.]

That's what I thought, dude.

[Dumbass. He nudges the notebook out of the way, and then pulls the blanket up over the two of them. Puts his arm back around Yosuke before the guy does end up biting him. Hunkers down as the big spoon. He's awake for a little bit, admittedly, but the warmth and the lulling sound of Yosuke's breathing does a great job of knocking him out too actually.

So, yeah, he does end up staying the entire time. Their ramen gets cold, but fuck it. Ryuji is definitely there whenever Yosuke feels like waking up.]

[ they're both stupid, it's fine. he does not twitch this time when ryuji breathes against his neck since he's officially checked out, but there's a little shiver when the blanket covers both of them and he settles back into ryuji's arm.

usually he doesn't knock out so easily, but figure it's because of the actual injury and residual stress of the day. he comfortably snoozes for a while, unaware of their now sad, cold ramen and keeping a hand around ryuji's arm to hold onto.

it's probably at least an hour or so two when he suddenly jolts awake, eyes immediately snapping open and a harsh inhale like he just woke up from a bad dream. seeing how he's in his room, he relaxes slowly even if he turns his head to look over his shoulder. ryuji. ryujiiiii.

if yosuke jostling both of them didn't wake him up, he'll just poke him in the cheek. ]

[The jolting makes him stir, but it's only to groan under his breath as if he's being forced to get up for school, or something. Drowsily, he turns his face down between Yosuke's shoulders and hides it there.

Noooo, it's warm and comfortable. He doesn't wanna get up.

He stays this way until Yosuke pokes him in the cheek, and he grunts gently. The sleepiest, most gravelly,] Dude... [Oh yeah. He's in Yosuke's room, spooning the guy, and they fell asleep together.

WOW!

His eyes sort of snap open, even if he still looks pretty sleepy about it. OKAY!! He's awake.] Uh--you okay? [Did you have a bad dream about being yaoi?]

[ shoulda been a dream about yaoi. given that his free hand is pressed against his own side it's probably more likely he had to revisit hien's monster form and the events of earlier.

but he seems to relax when ryuji looks at him like that, and there's a very stray "cute" floating through his thoughts before he opens his mouth to answer. still nothing though, and his eyes go half-lidded in annoyance. right. still no voice.

he tucks himself back down into ryuji's chest because he's still a little tired and now a little perturbed and mad, but he grabs for his notebook again. ]

You can go back to sleep if you want. Our ramen's gross by now anyway.

[Damn... Not the nightmare.

He sleepily flusters at the thoughts, but luckily gets the opportunity to hide his face in Yosuke again somewhat. Thank you.]

Nah... Need to... get up.

[Looks stupid by yawning gently immediately after saying this. He rubs at one eye before draping the arm back over Yosuke.] Meant to eat the ramen, but fell asleep... Dammit. We can just get some more. [THE RAMEN. He's never sacrificed ramen so terribly before in his life. He's really in purgatory.]

Feelin' any better...?

[ he might not be able to talk, but this doesn't stop the snort of amusement.

"very convincing."

now that he's making this any easier given the way he refuses to sit up. their ramen... abandoned... but they can get some more, food scarcity isn't real when bostco is literally outside. he considers the question, and he still sort of feels sort of wiped, but he doesn't feel like saying that so he nods instead. yeah, sure, he's feeling better. close enough. he sticks his arm out and starts writing again though. ]

You're surprisingly good at this.

[ this probably sounds rude, but he mostly means ryuji's good at holding still and letting yosuke do whatever the hell he thinks he's doing. he seems to realize that a clarification's probably necessary, so he adds on: ]

Kinda thought you'd just shove me off after a while. Aren't you hot?

[Nooooooooo. He gets immediately shy and flustered despite the clarification. There's a bit of a dismissive shrug. He stretches his legs and body out before contorting right back to the relaxed side slump he had previously.]

Nah... Didn't notice 'cause I was asleep. [He doesn't say anything for a long moment.] ...Was kinda nice.

[Yosuke was warm, and he was a little tired, too. Even though he runs hotter as a guy with great metabolism, he didn't notice the heat. Yosuke is welcome, though.]

Sorry, wasn't tryin' to make it weird, or anything.

[ he's currently sitting here thinking about how this escalated in such a sideways direction where at first he was suspicious of the guy, and then they found out they were both persona users, and then they became friends, and then they made out, and now he's willingly cuddled up to him with zero intentions of moving.

fucking wild when not even a year ago he was busy bitching about possibly laying too close to kanji. there's a long moment he taps his pen on the page, feeling the beginnings of an oncoming headache. ]

You're only making it weird by apologizing for making it weird, dude. I mean... it's probably not how I expected today to go but yeah, it was kinda nice. [ he shrugs. did he expect to get chomped? no. did he expect to like cuddling with someone and napping? also no. and yet.

"you might as well just stay." ]

[THIS ESCALATED SO QUICKLY FROM IDIOCY TO IDIOCY. And yet, he is here, almost refusing to stop cuddling with Yosuke unless Yosuke tells him to get lost. Sometimes, you are two boys who crave affection and belonging.

He thinks about Edamura said about it being weird if he makes it weird, and he winces to himself at how bad he is at talking about stuff. For a long time, he doesn't say anything actually.

Clearly, he's staying, though, as he is not making any motion to get up.

Finally, he says quietly,] What are we? [Which sounds so stupid when he says it, but he really doesn't know any other way to put it.]

[ love ryuji trying to dtr while yosuke's still trying to comprehend what the fuck is going on. granted, this is a very fair question judging by the fact yosuke doesn't immediately have an answer. ]

... [ his mouth is moving like he wants to talk, but he is once again limited to text. ]

I don't know. Friends, definitely. That part didn't change, I still like you. What do you think we are?

Sorry you gotta write everything out. I probably should've waited.

[AAAAAAAAAAAA. Hate them.

He's not sure what he is looking to hear really. Read? He doesn't know what he thinks he wants Yosuke to say to him in response.

Things have become... strange in a week's time. Muddled. Confusing. To him, at least.]

Friends.

[For starters, quickly, so Yosuke doesn't think they aren't. They are friends for sure. No one else really gets him the same way Yosuke gets him.]

...I feel like I don't know as much about you as I should, but... I wanna. Uh, anyway. The, um... kissin'... [Wow, Edamura, this is way harder than you made it out to be, asshole!] I-It wasn't bad! I just mean... about the kissin'...

I probably would'a died if you told me a while back I made out with a guy I didn't know very long. I thought it meant I... Anyway, I still like girls, too, but... after thinkin' about it for a while... I didn't like when Hak kissed me, but I didn't mind when it was you.

[You aren't making a bit of damn sense, dude.]

[ he just shrugs because he would've pressed the issue anyway at some point. the annoying part is that he has to read it instead of hearing any sort of tone indicator from yosuke, and yosuke knows that'd drive him insane, so. he's trying to be more intentional with his words.

this is probably no less confusing that they are having this conversation cuddled under a blanket on yosuke's bed, now that he thinks about it. ]

Supposedly, you can like a guy and decide guys are okay, even if you don't prefer them to girls. [ nobody in this fucking game has actually used the term bisexual, as it turns out. ] Obviously I still like girls, too. And I'm... I don't know what to do about Yu, but I really like him. I know that much. That's kind of what started all of this.
But kissing you was good? Like I liked it, and I don't know what that really means. Maybe it doesn't have to mean anything? You can kiss your friends even if you aren't into each other like that.
But like... same? I know we have to get back and we have things to do, and Yu and Akira are waiting for us, but I wish there was more time to know more about you.
I don't know what that means though.
I spent... a really, really long time telling myself I could never think about another guy, and how it was wrong. And then I met Yu, and then I kissed you.

[ now they can both not make sense. ]

I get it. Me, too.

[He is really making Yosuke write out all of this, wow. He would never be this interested in reading anything if it had something to do with school, but he's super invested in this. Hilarious.

Why won't anyone tell these dumbasses they are bisexual with the word? It's fine.]

Do you, uh... want it... to... uh, mean anything...?

[The other part is fine. He gets all of that. It actually makes no sense, but the most sense. He feels the same way. But this is the most important part.

This is the conflicting part. Do they keep the boundaries? Will they be able to? What about Yu and Akira?]

[ ryuji this is why you're failing all your classes. it's fine. it's a delicate and complicated situation that requires full attention and maybe it's good that yosuke has to write everything so he can't just blurt out whatever. a dubious squint. ]

I can't tell if you're trying to ask me out or not.

[ which like. fast and soon and they're leaving anyway, but the real issue is they do know they're going back to the same world. just. you know. five years apart. ]

I want it to be a thing we both are fine with if that's what you mean. But it doesn't have to be like... an exclusive thing? I mean kinda. Exclusive here maybe but.

[ ryuji can read that before yosuke gets frustrated and scribbles it all out. hold the fuck on. ]

You never answered me about Akira.

[WOW. His face turns beet as hell red at the first part. He opens his mouth and stammers, but then shuts his mouth again quickly so he can read the rest.

Well, before Yosuke scribbles it away in frustration. He reaches up and gets Yosuke's hand to try to make him quit that. Though he lets him write the last bit.

Okay, well!!! He dodges the first half for now to go with the latter.]

About Akira?

[ rotates like a hot dog roller again to actually look at him with a flat sort of look before returning to the book. apparently the rest can wait a sec. ]

You like him, don't you?
You talk about him the way I think about Yu.

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