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[ maybe he'll get twenty of the same something for funsies too. ]
As far as I can tell though, yeah. Tsukasa and Mafuyu and I already exchanged numbers so we can text when we get home. I need to get Edamura-san's, too. And I should probably ask Ryuji for his just in case. There may be a few others who I'd ask or try to figure out something, but Earth is easiest.
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Wow. You can practically have a reunion.
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I already asked Tsukasa to hold three spare tickets for me for his next performance in Shibuya. It's a couple of hours from where I live now, but it'd be worth it to see him and also Mafuyu.
[ so yeah. there is that. though the tiniest thought of "if we actually remember this and things work out" drifts into his thoughts. ]
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You still have doubts about the end?
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No. I just don't want to assume either. I think we almost have to because it wouldn't make sense to forget everything we've learned and done here for ourselves and the people we're rescuing. But... you know.
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... yeah. I know. I know you have a tendency to overthink things.
I get that the unknown is something that's hard for anybody to handle, especially since we're getting to the end... but you've been feeling good about progress for your shard, right?
[ he can only assume. yosuke seemed like he had good friends already before tobari got here ]
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It's not... fine, maybe it is. But I like having some idea. [ he stays quiet then to consider the question. ]
I feel surprisingly really good about my progress, yeah. So I shouldn't be worried about the unknown. I know that. But it's just... a lot to think about. To just be given this chance and going home with everything changed.
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You're really into the guy that you're here to save, right?
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When did this happen? When you saw the Mazekeepers?
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[ he's trying to be gentle because he watched this crisis in real time but his thought doxxes in what universe is that a completely straight platonic thing to do ]
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Shut up, I had just had him disappear into tiny flakes in front of me and vanish after rescuing him from being asleep in a glass coffin and I panicked, alright?
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[ even I don't think I would've let Hinagiku go if I saw that
he's not here to talk about his het though ]
... but my point was that in the end, you're here to see him. We've obviously met a lot of people and you've grown up a ton. [ he's actually really proud of yosuke even in the weeks that he's gotten to know him ] But... it makes sense that as we get closer to the end, you'll have to confront some of what you've learned about yourself.
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Yeah. I came here to get him back, and even though we've all met each other and bonded, nothing changes that. I can't just leave all of that behind, thinking it might disappear wasn't an excuse to try and ditch all of that. I can confront it.
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... you've grown a lot in a short while.
[ just musing on it ]
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... you think so? [ he does still have a need for validation. that part never changed. but there's something about hearing this from tobari who's only known him for a few weeks that makes him happy. ] I'm glad. I wanted to keep trying to even without the others with me. I just wasn't sure how much I'd accomplish.
[ without his usual support network, it was always hit or miss. ]
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Ah. Trying to get you to confront your feelings straightforwardly when we met was a fucking headache. But it's nice to hear that you're willing to at least look at them, even if you don't know how things'll turn out yet.
So you've done well.
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[ sometimes you panic. ]
... I will admit that without you, I probably wouldn't consider it. It's scary. All of it. But I can at least be a little more confident in the choices.
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Just remember that things have a way smaller chance of blowing up than you actually think, regardless of whatever it is you choose.
[ but tobari won't hound him on it. ]
I won't lie that I'm curious, but now that you've figured it out to where you're comfortable... it's also not anyone's business except yours.
[ in case people are nudging him to confess.... ]
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I know. [ ... ] A lot of the fear about it blowing up was because I already knew I'd bound us together for life. If it went poorly, he'd be stuck with me regardless and that was... a lot to think about.
[ again, he just got scared about it. ]
If anybody "deserves" to have their curiosity satisfied it'd probably you. I'm just... trying to decide when or how, and there's the whole Ryuji thing which adds a new layer of stuff to it. Like do I tell him I was busy fooling around with someone else before I maybe confess to him? Do I stop doing anything like this with other people when we get back? Stuff like that.
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Are you looking for advice or do you want to ride it out?
[ like. he has opinions and as a big brother does feel motivated to give them however
he also thinks it's important for yosuke to trust his gut, so maybe having him decide if he wants to get an opinion is worth it ]
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If it's advice I don't entirely agree with, I don't have to take it. But you tend to have good advice and a good perspective, so... sure, I'll hear it out.
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People have different levels of comfort about hearing about exes or past partners. If you bring them up, it gives the impression you haven't let go of them. It's fine if Ryuji's still your friend, but I wouldn't volunteer that information to Yu out the gate or else it might muddle what you actually want to say.
Similarly... whether or not you hook up with other people depends on how serious you are about Yu. It sounds like you figured out a lot about yourself as is... so now it's up to you on whether you think you'd want to keep pursuing it as stress relief for fun, or if you want to actually try something with the person you care about most.
If it's the latter, you should cut it out entirely. If you decide to treasure someone, treasure them completely. No room for misunderstanding.
[ so says the advice and life experience of a red light district man ]
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I mean... I think I'm pretty serious about Yu. [ that's his eurydice, his partner, the idiot he's now bound himself to forever. ] I want to tell him someday, probably. I don't know how much I can handle just... not, you know? Now that time's passed and I know how I feel.
Ryuji and I are from the exact same version of our world, but we're five years apart. We don't know each other there, and I don't even know how we'll find each other again someday. So... after we leave, obviously things would stop. Both of us know it's just for fun anyway.
[ well. probably. ]
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