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[ thank you for accepting him as he is...

he kind of has a feeling this is just as much for tsukasa's benefit as it is his given how normal the guy is, so he will accept it and sort of drape over him. tsukasa can walk and yosuke will drag himself behind him. ]

You didn't interrupt me, but yeah. I figure that's probably the best place to go right now until my energy comes back. We can hang out for a while if you want though, you don't have to leave right away.

[ get both of their minds off of this shit. also he's still needy as shit with or without a clinginess curse. ]

[Tsukasa 100% will accept any opportunity to a) spend some time with someone who really freaked him out there and b) get his mind off of--(there really was so much blood and)

ANYWAY.]

Hm! Then I'll stay for a little while. Of course, I want to check on everyone else, but I imagine they're quite busy right now.

[Juggling trauma and everyone else.

So for now, Tsukasa will make his way to the kitty manor with Yosuke draped over his shoulder. He just wraps an arm around his waist to keep him close instead of dragging himself behind.]

[ AGAIN. VERY HYPERAWARE OF HIS NORMIE FRIENDS. he can't quite write while they're walking like this but he seems to be focusing very hard to project a thought, somehow.

"there's always time later. it's okay."

they can both take a breather and then check on everybody. back to cat house!! he points tsukasa in the direction of his room, heading up and for the right door before reaching around him to push it open.

despite how messy his own room at home is, the room here is relatively tame? the bed's unmade and the closet's partially open, obviously filled with clothes. there are scattered snacks on different surfaces, a few books on a table, and his guitar is propped up against a wall near the bed with a stack of sheet music books nearby. he will peel himself away from tsukasa and wander to go settle down somewhere. tsukasa may have a chair or the bed, he does not care. ]

[It's okay. It's absolutely okay. It's okay, it's okay, it's okay.

In fact, that is a lot like what Tsukasa's thoughts currently sound like. Just a lowkey static repetition of "it's okay".

We're doing fine. Anyway. At least Yosuke's room is a welcome distraction. Tsukasa peers around curiously, and then makes his way over to the guitar to admire it.]

Have you gotten the time to play much?

[ it's just a feedback loop of "it's okay" repeatedly then. the guitar in question looks like it's in great condition, the pick tucked into one of the top frets and yosuke just lets tsukasa do this because they've talked music before and he trusts him to be careful. scribbles in his notebook and holds up his sign again. ]

It was in my box from earlier, so just a few times? I've been playing in my downtime though, and I played with Mafuyu earlier. It's nice to have even if we have other stuff to work on.

[He has to come closer to read Yosuke's writing properly, but he doesn't really mind. Walking back and forth between the guitar and where Yosuke is seated gives him something to do with the nervous energy that has settled, just barely, under his skin.]

Ah, I see! I won't ask you to now, but I would love to hear you play sometime! And Mafuyu's playing as well.

[He won't touch the guitar, since he can't play himself, but he does come close enough to properly admire it.]

[ give this boy a fitbit since he's getting his steps in. but he does raise an eyebrow before he looks at the guitar, and then at tsukasa, and he holds up a hand and motions like "bring it to me."

distraction? they can do distractions! (again, extremely aware that this was a lot to process.) ]

[Tsukasa blinks, looking between Yosuke and the guitar for a moment. He opens his mouth to ask if Yosuke's sure, even--before he shakes his head.

No, Yosuke wouldn't offer unless he's sure. And perhaps they can both use... a distraction like this.

So he picks up the guitar carefully and brings it over. His smile is a little lopsided, but earnest.]

[ he will take the guitar, but he also takes off his headphones to hand to tsukasa, gesturing that he should keep one ear on and one ear off. give him a second to look over his mp3 player and scroll through before selecting a song, adjusting the guitar briefly before he hits play on the player and also begins playing.

he figures he's the one out of the two of them that listens to the most western music so it makes sense to have a comparison. ]

[The only western music Tsukasa listens to are musicals so good call.

Anyway.

He obediently takes the headphones and puts them over one ear, settling himself to sit near Yosuke.

At first, he watches, fascinated by Yosuke's playing--but eventually, his eyes slide shut as he takes a moment to just... listen. He's always been surrounded by his music, after all. All his life, it's been a large part of his life--and there isn't much in the way of music in pugatory.

This feels a little bit like having a proper drink of water in the middle of a desert.]

[ he seems to perk up a little when tsukasa settles nearby, like just being around him gives him an energy boost. maybe it does? it's hard to say, and the music is a little slow to kick in but he can sort of hear the music through the other headphone and it's easier to get back on rhythm.

it helps that he's heard this song so many times before that he can remember the notes, but it's also clear he does know how to play. likewise, it's clear that this is something he really likes, shoulders relaxing and fingers moving over strings with ease.

even if they may be leaving soon, it helps to have this piece of himself nearby as something maybe other people would like, too. he stops playing, but his mp3 player's still on shuffle so i guess tsukasa gets this. after a few moments of picking up the song, yosuke's fingers begin playing along.

he can't write like this, but he can at least try a thought.

"it's hard to imagine not having music around."

it's what he has a heavy interest in, it's what he relates to, and it help him get through the day. (and it's also why i decided to take his voice instead of his hearing because he would be inconsolable and i didn't want to do that post-someone else's cyoa.) ]

[Ahhh... this is nice. Tsukasa doesn't have a lot of time to listen to his sister's band perform, much less practice--but he has, when he's gotten the chance, and this feels like Ichika strumming on her guitar while Saki and Honami and Shiho discuss changes to their songs.

He doesn't want to interrupt the music for even a moment, so instead, Tsukasa focuses on trying to direct his thoughts enough to be heard.

It has a secondary benefit that he doesn't even entirely realize--but he has to at least get his thoughts in order enough to think hard on what he wants Yosuke to hear. Slowly but surely, the staticky buzz, the nervous energy, is tamped down enough for Tsukasa to be able to think firmly, "I completely agree. I've always had music around, so it feels strange to not be surrounded by it all the time here. But this helps."]

[ maybe there really is something good about yosuke losing his ability to speak if it means helping both of them calm down and be more intentional with what they want to say. tsukasa doesn't have to do the thoughtsharing, but he understands why it's happening and it makes him smile a little.

"i'm glad. with what you do and your sekai i kinda figured."

he will play through the end of the song, but he pauses then to pick up the notebook and write again while his headphones keep going. ]

I didn't have an mp3 player until partway through middle school, but then it sorta just became something I never left at home. I used to wear my headphones on my commutes and stuff, and then when we moved to Inaba it was nice to have to block out everybody else. I always had them when we were training in the TV world, too. Helps me focus.

[Tsukasa leans against Yosuke's shoulder comfortably to take a look at what he's writing, humming a little as he does.]

Mmm... I completely understand. The headphones suit you, too. Like... a defining accessory!

[After all, even when he was all alone in an empty house, he still had the piano.

... A beat. He straightens, eager.]

Ahhh!! Now that I think about it, would you like to listen to some of my sister's band's music? I think you would enjoy it!

[ given he's still cold from his dip in the river, he's okay with tsukasa leaning on him. he smiles a little proudly, like he's happy to be acknowledged for his accessories, and he's not entirely surprised tsukasa understands.

sometimes you need something to fill the void of silence.

but he blinks at the sudden movement, and there's a rapid nod of his head. yes? please share. he's also sitting upright and reaching into his pocket to stop the player so he can take the headphones back and give all of this his full attention. ]

[Tsukasa pulls out his smartphone eagerly, all bright-eyed enthusiasm to share Saki's music.

He navigates to his music player, turns up the volume, and hits play!

Leo/Need's music vibe is very different from Tsukasa's (and Mafuyu's for that matter), but perhaps unsurprisingly, Tsukasa listens with fond happiness.]

[ the way that this is probably more his speed than either tsukasa or mafuyu's musical vibe given the way his eyes immediately widen. his fingers tap on the guitar in time with the music, and he's listening closely.

the song's not even over but he's grabbing his notebook again to write something and hold it up in front of tsukasa's face. ]

You need to send me this when we get home.

[Tsukasa laughs brightly at that, grinning.

Of course he's delighted that Yosuke likes it--but he also thought it would be more up Yosuke's alley in general.]

Gladly! I'll send you all of their songs!

Saki is the one who composes their songs, you know. And their lead vocalist, Ichika, is the one who writes the lyrics!

[He is practically effusive with pride as he gushes.]

That'd be great, thanks.
She's talented though. Was she composing these when she was on bed rest or did this come after? I like the lyrics, too.
And when do I get to hear some of your stuff anyway?

No, no, she only began composing when they formed their band. That only makes her work all the more impressive, of course! She picked it up very quickly!

[Saki is soooo cool.

A beat.

He tilts his head, thoughtful at that.]

My stuff, hm... we don't tend to record most of our music since it's performed on stage. [and they aren't exactly on Broadway.] Let me think...

[He scrolls through his phone, contemplative.]

Oh! I do have some recordings of some of our practices, for critiquing purposes. I could share one of those?

[ the way his eyebrows raise really says he's very much impressed. he would probably really like saki if he met her, just based on that alone. ]

That's kinda amazing. Actually? More than kinda.
I know you're more of a theater guy, but I guess I was just wondering if you had anything. I wouldn't say no to a recording.

[ he's curious mostly. ]

[heheheheh.]

Yes, of course! Because she is absolutely amazing!

[His amazing, super awesome, unbeatable little sister........

... anyway! Right.

He can pull up a recent recording of a full, proper performance of their song, holding out his phone so Yosuke can watch.]

This is from a practice dress rehearsal. We've been trying to incorporate more ballet-adjacent movements recently, given that is what we've been learning at Morinomiya.

[ he scoots a little closer, hooking his chin onto tsukasa's shoulder to watch the phone and give it his undivided attention.

the vibe shift is so blatantly obvious it's really him going "huh." while this plays out. he doesn't say anything (write, whatever) while this is going, but judging by his expression he's very much taking mental notes. ]

THIS was a practice???
Morinomiya's that opera academy right?
It feels kinda intense.

[Hmmm...?]

Yes, of course.

[Tsukasa drags the bar back on the recorded video on his phone so he can point to a very specific moment in the video.]

You can see here--Rui and I are not in sync at all. And here, Nene is too far forward on the stage.

[This is, as probably can be expected from Tsukasa, the minutiae that only matters to an extreme perfectionist.]

But yes, you could say that about Morinomiya. They are the pinnacle of musical excellence in Japan! They are famous for pushing those who make it in--which is already a small number--to the absolute limits while they study there!

... To be frank, it is really all we can do to keep up.

[ he watches again and seems to be paying more attention. ]

At the beginning there's a few parts that're rushed together when you're trying to move across the stage so it looks a little less fluid than what's going on in the front. And at the end after the flames come up, the space between you and the girl behind you isn't quite as even as the two on the other side. It makes that ripply turn thing just slightly more delayed than you want, I think.

[ he has yet to realize he's a dancer (of which i typo'd danger at first.), but he does know rhythm and spacial awareness just by nature of who he is. ]

How long were you working on that one? You guys are only studying there for a few months you said?

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