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[aerodynamic]

HELLO

"Yo. Is this thing on?"

GOODBYE

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[aerodynamic]

[ again, not sure why anyone ever thinks yosuke's likely to let go first when affection is initiated first, so he will allow this even as he seems to contemplate how to reply. ]

Spending as much time with everyone as I can. Trying to talk to them and learn more to remember whenever we leave. It's kinda lame, but maybe smaller gifts for some people I really owe gratitude to even though it'd be stupid stuff from Bostco probably. Um... [ hm. it's a weird week. ]

... to tell you the truth, it's probably gonna take me all week to really feel like I can deal with saying goodbye to some people, so... probably that, too.

[tindery]

At least you'd have an excuse to walk out with twenty of something on purpose.

[ instead of this insanity of just. doing it anyway. ]

... but that makes sense. Some of you seem like you're from similar eras and locations at least?

[ he's been guessing based on how they dress and how their names sound - but the moderns do stand out to him. ]

[aerodynamic]

That's assuming I give everybody the same thing, but fair enough.

[ maybe he'll get twenty of the same something for funsies too. ]

As far as I can tell though, yeah. Tsukasa and Mafuyu and I already exchanged numbers so we can text when we get home. I need to get Edamura-san's, too. And I should probably ask Ryuji for his just in case. There may be a few others who I'd ask or try to figure out something, but Earth is easiest.

[tindery]

[ he can't help but huff out an almost laugh at that ]

Wow. You can practically have a reunion.

[aerodynamic]

[ he rolls his eyes then. ]

I already asked Tsukasa to hold three spare tickets for me for his next performance in Shibuya. It's a couple of hours from where I live now, but it'd be worth it to see him and also Mafuyu.

[ so yeah. there is that. though the tiniest thought of "if we actually remember this and things work out" drifts into his thoughts. ]

[tindery]

[ . . ? the thought makes tobari pause, raising a brow. ]

You still have doubts about the end?

[aerodynamic]

[ a noise of displeasure about the thoughtshare, because he can only assume that's what happened. ]

No. I just don't want to assume either. I think we almost have to because it wouldn't make sense to forget everything we've learned and done here for ourselves and the people we're rescuing. But... you know.

[tindery]

[ yeah sorry king, tobari isn't nice enough to ignore thoughts. this is how him prying into yosuke's business started in the first place ]

... yeah. I know. I know you have a tendency to overthink things.

I get that the unknown is something that's hard for anybody to handle, especially since we're getting to the end... but you've been feeling good about progress for your shard, right?

[ he can only assume. yosuke seemed like he had good friends already before tobari got here ]

[aerodynamic]

[ yes he remembers 😒 ]

It's not... fine, maybe it is. But I like having some idea. [ he stays quiet then to consider the question. ]

I feel surprisingly really good about my progress, yeah. So I shouldn't be worried about the unknown. I know that. But it's just... a lot to think about. To just be given this chance and going home with everything changed.

[tindery]

[ point blank: ]

You're really into the guy that you're here to save, right?

[aerodynamic]

Okay, what does that have to do with this? And before you get on my ass about avoidance, yes. So much, in fact, I chose to tie us together until we both die even before I realized I'm probably in love with him.

[tindery]

[ . . . ]

When did this happen? When you saw the Mazekeepers?

[aerodynamic]

... y... eah. Weeks before you showed up. I met her after our expedition, before we came back here.

[tindery]

..... Yosuke.

[ he's trying to be gentle because he watched this crisis in real time but his thought doxxes in what universe is that a completely straight platonic thing to do ]

[aerodynamic]

[ ugh. ]

Shut up, I had just had him disappear into tiny flakes in front of me and vanish after rescuing him from being asleep in a glass coffin and I panicked, alright?

[tindery]

... yeah, I guess that'd do it.

[ even I don't think I would've let Hinagiku go if I saw that

he's not here to talk about his het though ]

... but my point was that in the end, you're here to see him. We've obviously met a lot of people and you've grown up a ton. [ he's actually really proud of yosuke even in the weeks that he's gotten to know him ] But... it makes sense that as we get closer to the end, you'll have to confront some of what you've learned about yourself.

[aerodynamic]

[ the look he gives tobari says that he should talk about his het because he's nosy. but he knows they will not, so... ]

Yeah. I came here to get him back, and even though we've all met each other and bonded, nothing changes that. I can't just leave all of that behind, thinking it might disappear wasn't an excuse to try and ditch all of that. I can confront it.

[tindery]

[ maybe if yosuke wants to ask but tobari will not volunteer information... ]

... you've grown a lot in a short while.

[ just musing on it ]

[aerodynamic]

[ he will possibly come back to this. as it is, what tobari says rattles him enough he's a little surprised. ]

... you think so? [ he does still have a need for validation. that part never changed. but there's something about hearing this from tobari who's only known him for a few weeks that makes him happy. ] I'm glad. I wanted to keep trying to even without the others with me. I just wasn't sure how much I'd accomplish.

[ without his usual support network, it was always hit or miss. ]

[tindery]

[ he smiles a little bit, amused at the surprise ]

Ah. Trying to get you to confront your feelings straightforwardly when we met was a fucking headache. But it's nice to hear that you're willing to at least look at them, even if you don't know how things'll turn out yet.

So you've done well.

[aerodynamic]

In my defense there's a big learning curve between assuming I could never be interested in guys and suddenly being in love with my best friend, and having a strange point it out was enough to make me question everything about myself.

[ sometimes you panic. ]

... I will admit that without you, I probably wouldn't consider it. It's scary. All of it. But I can at least be a little more confident in the choices.

[tindery]

[ he still doesn't know why yosuke was so stuck on not being into guys but if ryuji was having the same issue maybe that's just homophobia... well. ]

Just remember that things have a way smaller chance of blowing up than you actually think, regardless of whatever it is you choose.

[ but tobari won't hound him on it. ]

I won't lie that I'm curious, but now that you've figured it out to where you're comfortable... it's also not anyone's business except yours.

[ in case people are nudging him to confess.... ]

[aerodynamic]

[ surprise, it's just homophobia... ]

I know. [ ... ] A lot of the fear about it blowing up was because I already knew I'd bound us together for life. If it went poorly, he'd be stuck with me regardless and that was... a lot to think about.

[ again, he just got scared about it. ]

If anybody "deserves" to have their curiosity satisfied it'd probably you. I'm just... trying to decide when or how, and there's the whole Ryuji thing which adds a new layer of stuff to it. Like do I tell him I was busy fooling around with someone else before I maybe confess to him? Do I stop doing anything like this with other people when we get back? Stuff like that.

[tindery]

[ . . . . ]

Are you looking for advice or do you want to ride it out?

[ like. he has opinions and as a big brother does feel motivated to give them however

he also thinks it's important for yosuke to trust his gut, so maybe having him decide if he wants to get an opinion is worth it ]

[aerodynamic]

[ he does appreciate tobari asking before just dumping this on him. ]

If it's advice I don't entirely agree with, I don't have to take it. But you tend to have good advice and a good perspective, so... sure, I'll hear it out.